don’t need a time machine

“I go to sleep alone and wake up alone.  I take walks. I work until I’m tired.  I watch the wind play with the trash that’s been under the snow all winter.  Everything seems simple until you think about it.  Why is love intensified by absence?” - Audrey Niffeneger (The Time Traveler’s Wife)

It is not easy to get me affected by movies.  I am more affected by books, books have deeper impact, movies are a little light.  But The Time Traveler’s Wife is a book, and it is also a movie, so how am I affected by instances as such?  When I read the book more than two years ago, I was so touched.  The strength of the plot affected me for days after turning the last page.  It held be longing.

A while ago, I watched the movie, I forgot little details from the book so I enjoyed the movie.  I believe that how the movie was created from the book, the movie itself, would also affect me for days afterwards.  And maybe because I have been inloved with Eric Bana for quite sometime pre-Time Traveler’s Wife.

So anyway, what’s the point of this entry?  The point of this entry is that I’ve devised a new philosophy for myself so that I would enjoy movies-from-books more.  Books are books.  They are written, you read each word, you get affected.  Films are films.  They are filmed, you watch each scene, you get affected.  They are two different art forms that tend to portray the same story, but just the same, they are different.  A movie (from a book) would be better enjoyed if you watch it from a movie point-of-view, not from the book.

Hence, from now on, I would stop comparing movies from books.  Just to point, why would I watch a movie whose exact plotline I know already since I read the book?  There should be something different to keep it more interesting and to appeal to my untouched mind.

And since I’ve always been told that transitions are not my best of skills, I would then begin speaking of some other things, like back to the story of the movie/book.  It was really just intense.  I did shed a tear.  It made me believe that my own Henry would come someday.  He does not time travel, but he is in my future, both by destiny and choice.

the whisper of love

“Love is stronger than death even though it can’t stop death from happening, but no matter how hard death tries, it can’t separate people from love.  It can’t take away our memories either.  In the end, life is stronger than death.”

The names Kate Winslet and Leonardo DiCaprio were the first two names of famous people that I came to know in my entire life, I was 8 years old.  I was 8 years old and I fell in love with the movie Titanic, like everyone else.  Sure sure, there are a lot of critiques who hate it, or thinks it’s cliché and whateverelse have you, but I love it.  Before the advent of Serendipity, it was my favorite movie of all time.

Today, I watched it for the nth time and I was suprised that during the last hour of the movie, I was crying.  I couldn’t believe that a movie I have encrypted in my head could still possible make me cry.  The impact was so strong that it felt like I was watching it for the first time.  The movie is just incredible.  Forbidden love is sometimes the most romantic love  Although their love was so young and they were so young, they were willing to be together even during the tragedy.  My heart was aching all over.  I want to feel that, so here I am again, ranting about my lack of a love life.

Maybe it’s Jack’s spontaneity, I want that. I’m the most “unspontaneous” person that I know.  I am so tied down with obligations, deadlines and all those crap and responsibilities that I often fail to appreciate each moment of my life.  I’m always moving that sometimes, I would just like life to actually stop so that I can breathe.  Maybe it is my inability to actually show what I feel.  I’m certainly expressive but in actuality, there is still a deep ocean inside me that needs to be released.  It is so hard.

Yesterday, my friends and I were watching movies and they are all about love.  We were four then and two of them have a significant other.  They were all gushy gushy because it is still early in the relationship and that is where the romantic part is.  My other friend and I were quiet because we don’t really know what they feel.  We are both hopeless romantics because we are romantics.  Because of all the books and movies that linger in our brains, there has been a build up of romanticisms and reality does not live up to that.  So it’s sad.

I want to experience all those firsts, the romantic parts.  The first walk under the rain.  The first movie together.  The first dinner.  The first moment of touching hands.  The first cry of joy because of love.  The first letter.  The first chocolate and rose.  The first sharing of ice cream.  The first out-of-town travel.  The first hug.  The first kiss.  All of these would forever be kept in the vault of my memory when (if) they happen.

So now, I’m sitting here, feeling how hard it is.  People might not understand why it’s actually hard, but it is.  The anticipation is difficult.

soundtrack of my life

…just following the trend, it’s a little old, but I decided to do it now, just to see..

With thousands of songs in my playlist, the result might be silly. 

Opening Credits: So Long Astoria - The Ataris

First Day at School: Reinventing Your Exit - Underoath

Falling in Love: Look What You’ve Done - Jet

Breaking Up: Semi-Charmed Life - Third Eye Blind

Prom: The Rescue - American Hi-Fi

Mental Breakdown: 47 - Sunny Day Real Estate

Flashbacks: I’m With You - Avril Lavigne

Getting Back Together: So Damn Lucky  - Dave Matthews Band

Wedding Scene: Stairway to Heaven - Led Zeppelin (what?)

Final Battle: As Lovers Go - Dashboard Confessional

Death Scene: Time is Running Out - Mae (wow, this fits.)

Funeral Song: Bound to Happen -The Spill Canvas

End Credits: The Unwinding Cable Car - Anberlin

Finale: Glad - Tyler Hilton

******

If my life was a movie, I wouldn’t want to live with this soundtrack, it doesn’t makes sense, it makes fun of my existence.

We just got back from our family vacation, we went to Cagayan de Oro/Camiguin.  It was incredible, I love this country.

a perfection, a curse

"An intimate portrait and an epic story of the courage we discover, the innocence we surrender, and the memories we cherish…..forever."

-is the tagline for a new found favorite movie I actually cut a class for earlier because we were required to watch it.  The tagline came from the movie "Malèna" which is an Italian movie about a woman whose only crime is her beauty while everyone around her starts spreading false rumors, and about a boy, who observed this woman from afar throughout her demise.

I love the movie, I love how it is presented and I love how it was able to compel me to express mixed emotions throughout the film.  It was very simple, set in a time where everyone knew everyone else in the village.  It was during the world war where Italy joined and that it was mandatory for certain people to participate in the war.  Malèna's husband was a soldier and she was left to tend to herself and her father in an unwelcoming village insecure of her beauty.  They started spreading stories of her, of her real intentions in staying in a village.  Everything eventually got out of hand and this is where you start hating everything that's happening.  And while her life is being led into a desperate turmoil, a certain twelve year old boy suddenly grew up from one sight of her.  He became obsessed with her and we look into the transformation he had figured while he observed her.

Its a good movie worth watching.  We watch two lives of people who were, in a way, forced to confirm to a society that has a set of unwritten ground rules. 

I was laughing, I was weirded, I was angered, I sympathized and together I love it.

changes

I kept on changing my template this past week, and finally, I could say that I am already happy.  The main picture was taken in Batanes.  Although i.ph can't really display the exact image we captured, it still looks nice.

Anyway, I happen to watch Serendipity the other day, alone, in my room, and I could really and truly say that it is my favorite movie of all time.  The simplicity of the love story transpiring and of the events that happened were so immense that even though the movie could be mere as that, I feel the emotions that the movie is trying to bring to the audience, and not all movie does that to me.  Serendipity is the only movie that has a semi-annual movie viewing opportunity in my great deal of pirated DVD's.  It must be the only movie that I did not watch once.  I watch it twice a year and each time I watch it, the movie feels like it just keeps on getting better.  I may be the only person to watch a single movie twice a year, as if it is a tradition.  I watch it during sembreaks and during summer vacations.  Weird, huh?  I don't really care. It makes me hope, it gives me hope.

After watching the movie, so, do I believe in destiny?  I do believe in destiny, but I also believe that we control how we bring this destiny about.  And these destinies could also be changed, depending on how we deal with the trials we face.  I believe that God's destiny for us are all great, but not everyone works on fulfilling their destinies even though we are faced with the opportunity to do so.