or only one way that was always meant to be?
thorned rose
June 28, 2009”You can’t play our broken strings. You can’t feel everything that your heart don’t want to feel. I can’t tell you something that ain’t real.” - Broken Strings by James Morrison
In my everlasting effort to make my senior year, my last year of proper and required education, to be the best year of my academic life, I think that I am missing out on some important things, like my friends and even myself.
I don’t know how to feel about this. I am trying to do a lot of things to make my future brighter, since my grades won’t probably be that spectacular compared to other people’s. By doing a lot of things, volunteering for this and that, being assured that these things would be displayed in my transcript of records, I might be failing in another important aspect of life, and that is forging everlasting relationships.
However, I really don’t know how to feel. My friends are there and they are not as busy as I am. I can’t blame them for wanting to get out once in a while - make that very often - without me because I can’t seem to accomodate them in my schedule. When I do accomodate them, I would have to suddenly rush things that needed to be done and this one makes me feel worse.
I used to believe my time management skills were at its finest because I’ve never crammed. Yet I can’t really do everything that I would like. Maybe if one day is longer? Or maybe if I just let go of these things that I am doing?
It’s just it, I am so determined to make myself the greatest I can possibly be that I simply hope that people would understand that.
