”The first sign of a nervous breakdown is when you start thinking your work is terribly important.” - Milo Bloom

 

I can’t sleep.  I’m usually not insomniac…hmm, I take that back.  There are moments that I just can’t seem to sleep.  Usually there isn’t a reason, sometimes there are..tonight is one of those times.  Two months ago, I can’t sleep because something BIG was coming up.  That BIG of a thing could only go two ways, the worst and the best.  Good thing it went for the best.  Now, I can’t sleep because this weekend, another BIG thing would come out; and yeah, it could only go either for the worst or the best.  Nevertheless, at this moment of anticipation, I just wish for it to be over.

 

So, what is this BIG of a thing?  I am running to be the president of my organization, much like Obama (although that doesn’t make sense.. running a country is sooo different from running a noble org).  It’s so much to understand in one breath.  Throughout my life, I only lead in groupworks, then was only given a chance last year to be a leader of a bigger cause, but now, it is clearly that different.  Would I be able to do it?  I know I still need to win in order to clarify that, but if I do win, would I be able to face this?

 

Wahh, I don’t know! I am only a child with little experience.

 

And earlier, I discovered that some of my friends used to be frightened of me.  That fright only disappeared when we all became friends and they realized that I’m not frightening at all.  Now, what the heck is that?  Is it my frankness, the way I look or my voice?  I have no idea!

 

A Frightening President is not the way to go.