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could it be that everything goes 'round by chance?
or only one way that was always meant to be?

best kept secret

February 28, 2009

 ”Everything’s an act, when you’re pleasing everyone.” -Role of a Lifetime from bare

I watched “bare”, a musical production that centers on the lives of two boys studying at a private Catholic school, and deeply and secretly in love with each other, last Wednesday.

 

I love the story.  I love the acting.  Most especially, I love the music.  And for some reason, I feel inlove.  And I think I’ve mentioned, or implied, how I like stories of forbidden love.  It’s more romantic that way.  Two people who are not allowed to be together due to different social status, or religion, or family, whateverelse, just because society dictates it, yet they try desperately hard to be together is so romantic.

Last week I learned that every individual has homosexual tendencies, just because of the fact that one can admire the beauty of a fellow.

I know I am not gay, yet I admire the beauty of a fellow woman; it therefore implies that I have a tendency, and so does everyone else.  But thinking about sex inthat context, I quickly think, eww.

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In another story, about three weeks ago, I became the president of my organization…shocking.  My second year of leading and I hold the top position, Lord please help me.

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unfolding the first ballot

February 3, 2009
 ”The first sign of a nervous breakdown is when you start thinking your work is terribly important.” - Milo Bloom
 
I can’t sleep.  I’m usually not insomniac…hmm, I take that back.  There are moments that I just can’t seem to sleep.  Usually there isn’t a reason, sometimes there are..tonight is one of those times.  Two months ago, I can’t sleep because something BIG was coming up.  That BIG of a thing could only go two ways, the worst and the best.  Good thing it went for the best.  Now, I can’t sleep because this weekend, another BIG thing would come out; and yeah, it could only go either for the worst or the best.  Nevertheless, at this moment of anticipation, I just wish for it to be over.
 
So, what is this BIG of a thing?  I am running to be the president of my organization, much like Obama (although that doesn’t make sense.. running a country is sooo different from running a noble org).  It’s so much to understand in one breath.  Throughout my life, I only lead in groupworks, then was only given a chance last year to be a leader of a bigger cause, but now, it is clearly that different.  Would I be able to do it?  I know I still need to win in order to clarify that, but if I do win, would I be able to face this?
 
Wahh, I don’t know! I am only a child with little experience.
 
And earlier, I discovered that some of my friends used to be frightened of me.  That fright only disappeared when we all became friends and they realized that I’m not frightening at all.  Now, what the heck is that?  Is it my frankness, the way I look or my voice?  I have no idea!
 
A Frightening President is not the way to go.
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