dissolving tomorrow

“There are no hopeless situations; there are only men who have grown hopeless about them.” - Clare Boothe Luce

Rarely do I read the newspaper…maybe because I don’t find a point in updating myself with chaos going around the world.  I do know that there is war in Gaza, that the president of Myanmar is imprisoned but that’s it, I would stop there.  I would not want to know the scorching details of a child molested and left for death, nor the massacre of a starving family who was not able to pay their debts.  The media glamorizes such sad stories, print them in newspapers and hope to dear that they get payed.

I used to desire to be a journalist, but sometimes it’s too much.  When is information just too much?  I understand that the media is able to depict real life situations.  People would be able to grasps the reality of life and how it is really hopeless for more than half the population.  But media is not really my topic right now, it is about hopelessness.

Earlier, I was reading an article about a man going home because he was fired from a job, so was his wife.  He and his wife decided that there isn’t any point in living anymore, so he kills his five children, his wife, then himself.  It is disappointing to see that human beings really go that low.  Is life determined by work?  Why didn’t they just go and find another job?  I am in no position to judge since I don’t know how it actually feels, but I am an idealist and it saddens me that in reality, people seem to have their lives determined by their wealth probably.

Did they not have any goal in their life?  Maybe it was their goal to raise a family, sure, but even having been fired, they could still do that.  Can one event deter a person from achieving their goals?  If it is really a sought after goal, a real purpose, would instances and challenges waver a person from pursuing these goals?  I don’t think it should.  However, it could also happen that because of that instance, the goal just suddenly disappeared as well.  Isn’t that the reason why people commit suicide?

Is suicide an action of a person who faces a problem, or have experienced something traumatic?  Or is suicide an action of a person who can’t seem to find meaning and purpose for his/her own life?

Yet, amidst that fact of a sudden lack of purpose, how come starving people in Africa are still able to hope?

I don’t know how I would respond if faced with the same situation.  Now, I have a goal and there are a lot of challenges that blocks my way from getting that goal.  What is all of a sudden, that goal is gone, or that I can’t fight the challenges anymore?  Would I have another goal, or would I simply dissolve tomorrow?

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I won’t dissolve my goal because I am too much of a coward to do so.  Morals and ethics would prevent me.  But if I don’t have morals and ethics?