let there be morning

“I can not stumble here.  I am safe inside my head.  When I wake up I’ll forget.  I’ll come back to my mess. ” - Waking Dream by Natalie Walker

I am so depressed lately.  It is as if things are finally out of control, instead of being restricted in the parallel structure I have created.  When one problem is solved, another one arises, almost instantly at the same second.  Why is it like that?  And now at this very moment, I am regretting most of the decisions I have made this year.  Why can’t people just reach a compromise when it is for the common good we are talking about?  Why do powerful people, in a matter of minutes, take away everything you have been working on for the past months?  The answer is this, people are simply selfish.

We no longer have money, and we were displaced.  What next?

I don’t understand now why God is doing this.

I want to go back when times were simpler; when I didn’t have responsibilities and I could really care about the sake of events.  I don’t think I like my life anymore.

I no longer have the strength and will to work hard day and night for one thing and see it stumble before even reaching it.