the partings of walls

My close friend came back from the States around two months ago, and we’ve only seen each other twice.  It is pretty bad actually.  Even my bestfriend who practically lives a few blocks away only sees me during important dates like birthdays and the Holidays, aside from that, none.  I no longer even see my close friends from high school.  I miss these people.  They were the ones who watched me grow in my high school years.  They were the people who I really know that I can say anything and not sound like some big dope.  I can’t say everything with my college friends, they are judgemental, but high school peeps are just, like that.  I feel rather sad by the fact that we no longer see each other. 

What amazes me though, is the fact that I still feel their presence lingering.  Although we don’t constantly contact each other, although I don’t know whether she is a Dean’s Lister or whatever happened to her boyfriend before, I still feel the connection, it is so tight and unweavering.  But I need to see them really.  It is always just me, I’m the person who is not doing anything about it and I know I can.  Why don’t I?  Why can’t I just make some time in my busy schedule.  It is so worth it.

Last night I was watching the first episode of the fifth season of One Tree Hill.  Their lives have changed of course.  Some of them became rich and popular while others are still starving.  What I loved about the episode even though it was filled with depression was when Peyton and Brooke finally made contact with each other and made a way to see one another, after four years.  They haven’t seen each other in a long time but it seemed like nothing has changed.  I hope it is the same for me.