my favorite song

Amidst that exam week chaos, I wanted to share my favorite song of all time: Kill by Jimmy Eat World.  This song has a special place in my heart even though the lyrics is heartbroken as it is.  Along with the music, this song is almost a serenade that could really really tear your heart along the middle.  Try downloading it.

Kill by Jimmy Eat World 

Well, you’re just across the street
Looks a mile to my feet
I want to go to you
Funny how I’m nervous still
I’ve always been the easy kill
I guess I always will

Could it be that everything goes ’round by chance? (chance?)
Or only one way that it was always meant to be (be)
You kill me, you always know the perfect thing to say (hey hey, hey hey)
I know what I should do, but I just can’t walk away

I can picture your face well
From the bar in my hotel
I wish I’d go to you
I pick up put down the phone
Like your favorite Heath Meizer song goes
It’s just like being alone

Oh God, please don’t tell me this has been in vain (vain)
I need answers for what all the waiting I’ve done means (means)
You kill me, you’ve got some nerve, but can’t face your mistakes (hey hey, hey hey)
I know what I should do, but I just can’t turn away

So go on love
Leave while there’s still hope for escape
Got to take what you can these days
There’s so much ahead
So much regret
I know what you want to say
(Know what you want to say)
I know it but can’t help feeling differently
I loved you, and I should have said it
But tell me just what has it ever meant

I can’t help it baby, this is who I am (am)
Sorry, but I can’t just go turn off how I feel (feel)
You kill me, you build me up, but just to watch me break (hey hey, hey hey)
I know what I should do, but I just can’t walk away 

***** 

Everytime I hear this song, I want to cry even though I’m not affected, but look at the lyrics.  Each chorus is a different philosophy.   I particularly like the bridge part especially when he sang "I loved you, and I should have said it, but tell me just what has it ever meant."  Really now.  I can’t symphatize with the pain but since I’m a romantic, I could still feel the emotion running in that very part of the song.  The song is simply about a person who loves someone whom he/she knows would never be his/her.  It is lost love, unrequited.  Will I experience this?  Gosh I hope not.  I don’t know if I could bear loving someone, doing everything for him and in the end, he will never love me just as much.  It is a sad fact, it happens.  But the part where he sang "I can’t help it baby, this is who I am." is a sign of strength for the lover.  It is like acceptance that "really nothing would happen between us but I am not going to change to someone who I am not just to get you."  So even though the song is tragic, glimpses of strength is always a sign of hope.