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For Me This Is Heaven - Jimmy Eat World 

The first star I see may not be a star
You can’t do a thing but wait
So let’s wait for one more…

And the time’s such clumsy time
I’m deciding if it’s time

I’m careful but not sure how it goes
You can loose yourself in your courage

When the time we have now ends
When the big hand goes round again…

Can you still feel the butterflies?
Can you still hear the last goodnight?

And the mindless comfort grows
When I’m alone with my ‘great’ plans

And this is what you said gets her through it
If I don’t let myself be happy now then when?
If not now when
The time we have now ends
And when the big hand goes round again…

Can you still feel the butterflies?
Can you still hear the last goodnight?

I close my eyes and believe
Wherever you are
Angel for when the time we have now ends
And when the big hand goes round again

Can you still feel the butterflies?
Can you still hear the last goodnight?

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This is the original soundtrack of my life.  It’s not my favorite song actually, but I think, in a way it captures whatever I think.  My favorite song is actually Kill by Jimmy Eat World but that song is just love sick, unlike this one. In my interpretation, the song talks about life in general, that sometimes we win, and sometimes we loose.  We, however, should never quit and continue on believing.  Carpe Diem.  Like life, there are moments that you would just like to end it, it’s cowardice.  What is heaven?  That’s why people kill themselves, to reach heaven, don’t they?  It’s ironic however.  Life itself is one big initiation that we must pass to know if we deserve to go to heaven.

Whenever the only choice is to give up, I listen to this song, "close my eyes and believe".