summer blunders

Why am I writing about summer in the middle of a cold season?  Because I don't have that much money.

I tried conditioning and reasoning with myself that I didn't need to be with them because I'll be taking a Minor and I've got full-load until I graduate and I study all year round, but I still can't hide the fact that I want to go.  I want to go to the Summer Tour Program, to France, to leave and study with them and master the French language.  It would be very fun to be a teenager, exploring France, learning from there and earning a belt degree higher than other graduates because of the credentials of havig studied abroad.  All my friends are going, their parents will give them money.  I won't, because I don't want to be the "brat who asks lots of things" and be given 300,000 pesos to live in France for a month while they themselves have never stepped a foot in Europe.   It would be very selfish of me, so I look at the bright side: when we all graduate, at least I have two minors to go with my Bachelor's degree than one which would they have.  Plus, I plan to travel the world with my money with the career I plan to make with my degrees. 

All too idealistic?  Well yeah, but then again, idealism is the only reason why people still try to live.  People are idealistic about love and romance, about hope and faith, about money and careers.  Idealism is the reason I'm taking my course because I don't want to be like all the other people who go take Nursing even though they don't like it because of the realism of life.  I might die poor, living my life and idealisms, doing the things I love, than die rich, wasting my life trying to make money and doing the things I hate.