childhood pocket

In This Diary by The Ataris is probably one of my favorite songs.  Not the best of the best, but definitely a favorite.  This song probably describes my current sembreak, the best ever had.  However, I did not do anything rebellious of that sort, but the idea is.  The song is about growing up and that the process of growing up, is better than being a grown up.  Growing up, you face many difficult challenges, commit mistakes and learn.  Being a grown up, you have an idea how to handle things perfectly so you are judged accordingly, better not mess up.  Growing up, you are careless, happy and innocent.

Anyway, here's the lyrics of the song, for the sake of it.

In This Diary- The Ataris 

Here in this diary,
I write you visions of my summer.
It was the best I ever had.
There were choruses and sing-alongs,
And that unspoken feeling.
I’m knowing that right now is all that matters.
All the nights we stayed up talking
And listening to 80’s songs;
Quoting lines from all those movies that we love.
It still brings a smile to my face.
I guess when it comes down to it…

Being grown up isn’t half as fun as growing up:
These are the best days of our lives.
The only thing that matters
Is just following your heart
And eventually you’ll finally get it right.

Breaking into hotel swimming pools,
And wreaking havoc on our world.
Hanging out at truck stops just to pass the time.
The black top’s singing me to sleep.
Lighting fireworks in parking lots,
Illuminate the blackest nights.
Cherry cokes under this moonlight summer sky.
2015 Riverside, it’s time to say, "goodbye."
Get on the bus, it’s time to go.

Being grown up isn’t half as fun as growing up:
These are the best days of our lives.
The only thing that matters
Is just following your heart,
And eventually you’ll finally get it right.

Nonetheless, I can't wait to grow up so I can have money.  Why is it that when you are young, you like to have lots of things: toys, books, bikes, etc.. but you don't have the luxury to buy it?  When you are older and earning, you don't even want anything but maybe clothes?  And everything you buy when you are older are necessary materials like scissors, pans and refrigerators?  You don't want to buy anything for yourself that you have been longing for when you were a child? I'm not saying that you should waste your money on these items, of course spend wisely, but it is really weird that when you have the opportunity to practically buy stuffs you want, and even with excess money, you don't.

Which makes me wonder, will I act the same way adults do when they earn money?  I hope that I would act around the middle.  I would probably buy a book every other week, my guilty pleasure and the only thing that I actually spend money on.  In the past, I was given the privilege of having my books paid by my parents to encourage us to read, and the fact that books are educational.  But then, when they noticed that my buying of books got very very frequent, they simply gave me free books every month and majority of times, I buy for myself.   It could be a waste of money in my part, I don't earn.  Luckily, I don't have to buy CD's like I used to or DVD's.  When I was younger, I often dreamed of having the four walls of my room properly stacked with CD's that I was fond of buying.  Fortunately, iPods came along and I discovered downloading.  I'm sorry that downloading is illegal but CD's are insanely expensive.  And I don't have to buy DVD's because me and my mom love to watch, so she buys it.  Not the same situation with books.  I'm the only one in my family who reads.

Anyway, back to growing up.  When I'm grown up, je voudrais être un belle, chaud, riche et futé femme. Ha! Decipher that.