or only one way that was always meant to be?
fate beyond reason
September 12, 2007Why am I bestowed upon with a pre-determined fate?
I ask this to myself all the time. School is getting harder by the minute, and my effort to try and become an active member of my organization is difficult to do since school, of course, is my main priority. However, this does not dissolve the fact that I can not change my fate. What happens to free will then? I feel that all external forces is against me and that I can not do anything about it but try to make the best out of it. If I am in control with the situations, I would have prevented things to pile up, but no. Professors always want group projects, and group projects consists of different people, and different people have different perceptions resulting to a chaotic mountain of opposing beliefs or system.
If only I can make things go my way, wouldn't it be better?
Life is pretty tough, and for an 18 year old like me to handle this much pressure is beyond reason. Maybe if I try to sustain my mediocre life similar to high school, everything might be easier, would it? But then, when you are done with the day and everything is at peace, would it have been this much satisfying?
The idea of finishing a mountain of work, balancing it with personal and extra-curricular activities, is actually truley and innately more satisfying.
Four more weeks……I can do it.ü
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